Over the years it has come to my attention more and more that things I said in the past were either intentionally or unintentionally heard incorrectly, distorting the Truth I was attempting to put out into the world. This distortion has shown up in many ways and I'd like to put these things straight here.
I've already mentioned on Instagram posts how I began noticing that when I took an action or put some words out there they would come back at me, usually with a delay of years, in a distorted version. This has caused all kinds of chaos and confusion, especially with new people I have met who seem to have a false impression of me.
One of the examples I can give is the SoulJahm logo, which is a rainbow mosaic graphic, which Kate designed. She designed this spontaneously and there was no discussion about it. The rainbow had been following us around in the early days of SoulJahm regularly - the song "Over The Rainbow" played on radio stations as we arrived at places, real rainbows appearing in the sky at significant moments, etc... Lots of synchronicities involving rainbows so it was a purely innocent and natural thing to use that symbol as the SoulJahm logo. To us it represented Freedom and Positivity and Oneness.
After Kate's death, I had to return to Edinburgh in 2014, with literally nothing, and start again. I knew nobody other than family but gradually people started coming to me. What struck me as odd at first was many of these people were younger than me, which I wasn't used to. I was puzzled by this for some time but went with it because I am not prejudice towards age, colour, nationality, etc... From certain things said to me during these encounters I was left with the impression some people were perceiving me as some sort of supporter of the LGBT movement. They seemed to see me as an ally and then would leave confused that I didn't share their belief system. I'm not against anybody's sexuality or sexual preferences but neither am I a supporter of any movement.
I could go on giving endless examples of misunderstandings like this but the point I want to get to is eventually it dawned on me that so much of this could be traced back to an encounter I had with an Irish girl and French freemason between 2007 and 2010. I met her on the David Icke forum just at a time when I was going through a big spiritual awakening. Some very bizzare coincidences began happening and one of them was that my girlfriend at the time, Kate, had actually met this woman at the end of 2006 on a women's fashion forum. Seeing the girl was into conspiracies and that we had just signed up to the David Icke forum, she passed it on and the girl joined. I never knew any of this until I bumped into her a few times on the Icke forum and we discussed the loss of our mothers. She had lost hers in 2006 and my mum had just recently died in 2007. I seemed to be coping better with the death of mine than she was with hers and so I offered her some words of comfort and encouragement. Soon after we all discovered we inadvertently knew each other.
From there, I didn't have too much contact with her as she was Kate's friend and they kept in touch via email and Facebook. I wasn't on social media then so the only time I had contact with her was when our paths crossed on the Icke forum. We got on fine to start with but gradually it became apparent our views on things clashed. Her French boyfriend, who soon became her husband, was not in the picture at this point but in the background. She claimed he couldn't join the forum because of his job.
In 2009 me and her had a few bust-ups on the forum over differing views on spirituality. She lashed out at me and brought Kate into it too. We sorted it out with no bad feelings and I suggested we stay in touch away from the Icke forum, via email. She agreed. At first she was communicative but gradually I noticed she was being evasive. By August 2010 it all ended in a bust-up. Something I said freaked her out, she brought her husband into it, suddenly out of nowhere he was writing to me and then she tried to pass my emails onto "authorities". First trying the moderators at the David Icke forum, who weren't too interested then threatening to go further. One of the moderators actually checked my private messages and could see there was nothing untoward that I'd said to her. She had also lied blatantly and claimed I got her email address from my girlfriend Kate without her permission. The moderator could clearly see it was she herself who had agreed and passed it on to me. She ranted quite disgustingly at me publically on the forum and even mentioned her husband was "standing behind me smiling" as she typed.
At the time of all of this, Kate and I brushed it off as some maniac couple and let it blow over. In fact, I wouldn't even have known of the public rant if this other forum member hadn't alerted me to it. They had both made it clear they wanted nothing to do with us and so Kate and I moved on and set off to Europe.
Pretty soon we began noticing synchronicities involving them were continuing to appear. This went on and on but that is for another time. The part I'm getting to here is there were certain topics discussed between us during that time that have been part of the distortion of Truth I am seeing still playing out to this day.
One of them is that I once said to her that I saw us as part of a "movement". My intention there was to imply a spiritual movement, a movement of conscious awakened beings uniting. Years later, in the same timeframe around 2016 when the LGBT thing began appearing in my life, in the world there was that movement and also the "me too" movement. It felt like all this stuff was coming into my world during those years when it was nothing to do with me or what I am about.
Kate had discussed with her my kundalini awakening in the early days, 2007, and one of the things she said was "he must have a big mission ahead of him". At the time I pushed that kind of talk away because I didn't believe in missions. Something remarkable had taken place in me, a significant change in perception of reality, and life was never the same again but I didn't see myself as on any mission. So I played down that kind of talk yet from 2016 onwards I noticed people were coming to me, some implying I was Jesus or something, a lot of Christian based talk and activity was happening around me.
Around the time of the bust-up she was portraying me as some creep guy and actually got it into her head me and Kate wanted to come to Nice, France to live with her. The whole email exchange was so absurd that all I could do was be humourous and silly so I referred to some photo of myself sitting on the couch wearing pinhole shades and jokingly said "yeah, all I have to do is put on my pinholes and all the girls come flocking", which was a sarcastic comment because the truth was in those days it was just Kate and I and very few people interacted with us. Around this time I also remember seeing a post from her on the forum where she said "there must be a man out there for all the girls".
As I said, I couldn't understand why so many younger people, particularly women, were trying to interact with me from 2016 onwards. Despite Kate and I trying to make friends for years nobody wanted to know, even in Europe, people mostly stayed away. Now that I was on my own, it was like a door had been opened and they were all showing up, one after the other. At first I was amused by this but when the behaviour increasingly became erratic and unstable it quickly got tiring.
Sometime during this time that interaction with the Irish girl and her comments came back to me and I wondered if this was another distortion.
Her husband in his emails said to me "we know who you are" despite me never having any previous contact with him. He also said "I hope you remember this encounter". Several years later I start getting people coming up to me randomly, offline and on, acting as if they know me. He told me "as far as we can see you are full of hate, everything in your world is fake" and that has also tried to manifest itself in my reality over the last few years. He said he could "introduce me to some occultists in the UK" before leaving for Europe and when I returned, certainly some of the people I met could be in that category.
Many things I've been trying for, which are the true reality of what I am about, have been polluted by this nonsense. Now I said things too but it was always in response. When I joined the David Icke forum I wasn't looking to make friends. I was there to share spiritual information with people. Not because I was being rude but because my interest was always to make real life friends and that was how I was when I was 19 and that was still how I was when I was 27 and still today. The internet I saw as a useful tool and it was there I met Kate when I was 19, but within a year or two it became a real life relationship. Neither of us had any intention of it remaining online. If you can't be with people in person online communication can be a technological help but that is all as far as I'm concerned. I'm not interested in living in a world creating a network of online only relationships, which has seemed more and more what people have been trying to get with me as the years have went on.
So I also expressed this to her during our conversations because she was running all around the Icke forum making connections with people and encouraged me to "tell us about your life". My response was "I'm not here to make friends", meaning not on that forum to make them. That doesn't mean I meant in general life and I've continued to remain open to that in person but it rarely happens because most people I meet want to have an online relationship, even people I've met who live in Edinburgh! Those who do seek out me have usually been crazy and unstable and certainly not in tune with me. So whether that statement about friends on the Icke forum is another distortion is in all of this is also a possibility.
A final thing I can mention here...
At one point, in response to him boasting that I had nothing to offer, that he basically had more going for him in his life, I responded "yes, thats right, I have nothing to offer". It was my way of diffusing his arrogance and asserting that all I have to offer is Nothingness or Consciousness or no-thing. Predictably, this has been distorted and its interesting that when I busked I regularly got guys looking in my moneybox, making comments or comparisons about how much I was making, standing trying to talk to me, distract me and block other people from accessing my moneybox. When I played online, at first for free, accepting tips, very few people tipped, although many wanted to chat with me or made comments about my "beautiful songs". When I moved over to pay-per-view style playing there was resentment and complaints. It has been clear for me to see for a long time that there has been a deliberate attempt to deny me financial reward for my work - unless its in a pub! I've had a few offers to play in pubs, even once it was put to me I could earn £300 per week but I turned them down. Why? Because I saw what happened whenever I played Music around people drinking. They didn't care about the Music and only wanted to chat and were often disruptive and not even good drinkers. I saw this at gatherings in the house and I saw it busking outside. I knew if I went into pubs where it'd lead and knew without a doubt it wasn't my scene. Again, nothing against pubs, and I will drink now and again when in the right company but I've had to deal with so much extreme behaviour involving alcohol for years now that I rarely do. I have in mind much more beautiful settings for where I can play my songs.
Why is this relevant to anyone reading?
Well, David Icke has spoke of the Problem-Reaction-Solution game that the system plays on the masses and I look at what has happened in my life as a smaller, personal version of that. As I said, I wasn't on the Icke forum looking to make connections, they came to me, they came into my space, interacted with me and then blew up when I didn't agree with them. I responded but didn't react so it seems they tried again and again. They also inverted everything, which I've since learned is what narcissists do, to make out I was the one looking for the encounter, I was the one full of hate. They did this again and again trying to get a reaction. The solution, it seems, is that they wanted to make things so hard for me I'd give in and come to their ways - join the club, the masonic club, which we now clearly see trying to dictate to the masses how they should be living.
It was an emphatic "no" when I was 19, it was an emphatic "no" when I was 27 and its an even louder "no" today. I am a free being and I live my life as I please and in accordance with my own inner authority, which is the power of Consciousness itself, or God or Jah, or whatever name you want to give it.